Date: 2024-09-12 05:48 am (UTC)
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[ They all have their own mindless tasks that help with clearing the mind. Cassian's is working on something. A project, anything to help keep his mind focused on something that isn't whatever plagues him.

Even if he were nervous, which he tells himself he isn't, this still requires his full attention as he turns to face Istredd, arms folded across his chest He hadn't been sure where to start when he did arrive at this point, but he starts with an explanation even though he feels like it doesn't require one. ]
 

The coup shook River. And after that I told her that if there was a way to leave, I would go with her. 

[ Because as much as he's wanted to leave from the moment he had been pulled spluttering and coughing into this world, that selfish desire had changed. This was no longer just about him. ]

We're going to leave for Nott when we see an opportunity. Neither of us know when but I wanted to tell you so you don't think we've gone missing for no reason. 

Date: 2024-09-24 04:18 am (UTC)
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No, there isn't. But it's a chance we'll take.

[ The risks and dangers involved aren't unknown to him. Even if other Summoned hadn't escaped before them, Cassian is well versed in what could happen after someone of relative importance leaves. Not that he counts himself important. It isn't lack of self-confidence that has him dismissive of his own status here, rather it is a pragmatism. Save for activities that felt unavoidable at the time, he's purposefully kept a low profile within the castle for something like this. And it doesn't hurt that his magical powers if he could even call them that were latent and unremarkable as well.

River on the other hand - Cassian didn't know enough about magic but he knows enough to understand how powerful she could be. And this place has proven that they have no problem making use of those that could be deemed useful in their war.

Istredd mentioning that he'd spoken to Geralt - someone he'd met briefly bonding over a troublesome cat and a drink with - makes him bristle some. Of course he trusts Istredd and his judgement of those that he trusts. But that doesn't mean that he trusts someone he barely knows. ]


We don't know how long that will take for you two to find a way for that to happen. This is the only option we have right now and the least risky.

Date: 2024-09-29 03:44 am (UTC)
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[ That too would be the worse case scenario in Cassian's mind. Sidwell had already shown he had few qualms in exerting force if it meant order. The former queen may have been moved by her emotions and volatile as a result, but controlled power and restraint were probably more dangerous in Cassian's eyes. All the more reason to get River out of Thorne as soon as they were able; Nott at least was an acceptable alternative.

And more importantly, it wouldn't put too much distance between themselves and the other Summoned they were leaving behind. ]


If there's illegal teleportation to the Free Cities there could be something to Solvunn.

[ But whatever the means, whatever the cost whether it was gold or something else, Cassian knew he'd pay it.

The tension he had been holding in his shoulders loosens for just a moment at Istredd's touch and his words. ]


I'm not going far. I'd tell you to come with us but I know you turned down others who asked you to do the same.

Date: 2024-10-08 06:03 am (UTC)
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[ This scene feels all too familiar to him and for a moment Cassian feels his resolve waver. But as soon as he feels that foundation quake, he steels himself. The circumstances are different. When he ran away after the job on Aldhani, it had been done so selfishly in spite of all his good intent. No part of him had wanted to leave anyone behind for what would have been the umpteenth time. At the time he had told himself that it was all old habits dying hard. That while everyone - Maarva, Bix, Brasso and countless others would inevitably be disappointed with him in some way, would write it off as nothing more than Cassian needing to lay low again. At the time he'd told himself that that was fine. That he'd return in time once the heat died down. Except it hadn't and things had escalated far quicker than he could comprehend. 

But this time will be different, he tells himself. This time he isn't leaving for good. Nor is he leaving on his own for his own selfish reasons. No one would die. They're all working together to get the Summoned out collectively and this was just one small step towards that. But before he can fully steady himself he hears his childhood name. Inadvertently he flinches. ]
 

It's Cassian. Not Kassa. 

[ The weary reminder isn't meant to be a chiding one or even scathing. He just can't bear to hear it in this moment when this parallels all the scenarios in which he's left someone behind before. That same weariness seems to persist at the reminder and the moment passes. ] 

You say that like I'll just abandon her when we get there. I'm sure Yennefer and the others won't let her too far out of their sights either. 

Date: 2024-10-18 09:42 pm (UTC)
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[ It isn't an intentional wall; they're both out of sorts and not themselves. The last several weeks have been harrowing and when his walls have been forcibly torn down it's only natural that his instincts tell him to pull them back up. But they aren't fully impenetrable. A prickling sense of guilt manages to worm its way through the cracks as he watches Istredd drag a hand through his hair and cast his gaze down towards the ground.

Remorse begins to trickle its way into his body language and he rubs a hand across his face. ]
 

I know. I'm sorry. 

[ There had been an attempt at trying to bring some levity to the situation. Clearly that had fallen flat. When his hand falls away from his face he looks up, an apology in his expression. ] 

I'll be in touch once we get there and once we settle River in. We'll probably have to stay out of sight for a little while in case they try and find us but Nott isn't that far. [ Cassian's gaze steadies on Istredd's. ] We aren't going where you can't reach us.