[ It feels like putting a wall between them, regardless of whether that's the case. Or really Istredd's just feeling tense at the moment and emotional. He also left people in the lurch once. It was for a good reason and one he had to do, but all it did was end up hurting himself and others. He's not the one who stays, usually. He's the one who goes, who had a path far away from other people. This life has been such a different one for him. Amazing how two years can supersede nine decades. ]
That's not what I said.
[ Istredd trusts Cassian with River without question. That's why he wants this for both of them. The farther away from the throne the better right then. He feels the misery come over him like a shadow and rubs a hand through his hair, looking down at the floor. This means all of his family will be away from him, and with Kell recently gone, it feels like an extra cut to the heart. But it's an active choice.
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[ It feels like putting a wall between them, regardless of whether that's the case. Or really Istredd's just feeling tense at the moment and emotional. He also left people in the lurch once. It was for a good reason and one he had to do, but all it did was end up hurting himself and others. He's not the one who stays, usually. He's the one who goes, who had a path far away from other people. This life has been such a different one for him. Amazing how two years can supersede nine decades. ]
That's not what I said.
[ Istredd trusts Cassian with River without question. That's why he wants this for both of them. The farther away from the throne the better right then. He feels the misery come over him like a shadow and rubs a hand through his hair, looking down at the floor. This means all of his family will be away from him, and with Kell recently gone, it feels like an extra cut to the heart. But it's an active choice.
Lucifer above everyone else, always.
The cause on top of that, first. ]
I just worry.