This began because of Istredd's hunger for closeness and he's been fed well from the start, but he feels good about this in-between for them. It's not him being the screw up anymore and this is something that makes them both balanced. It will be easier for them to close a gate than lift up a wall. The fact that Lucifer feels good about it helps too.
"I don't mean now, love. Our minds are in no condition. It needs time to settle."
It is a new form, it may break easily under aggression until they learn how to use it. And he means it; they are in no position. Lucifer in particular is unstable, not that Istredd wants to put too fine a note on that, considering it may make him feel like Istredd is saying it's only him that is struggling. It's only him that is weak. It's not the truth, but it could twist that way.
He holds Lucifer and tilts his head to kiss his temple, underneath the mind he loves so well. "I came so close to losing you." And his own life, and Yennefer's, and all those mages. But Lucifer is a priority.
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Date: 2024-01-25 01:49 pm (UTC)"I don't mean now, love. Our minds are in no condition. It needs time to settle."
It is a new form, it may break easily under aggression until they learn how to use it. And he means it; they are in no position. Lucifer in particular is unstable, not that Istredd wants to put too fine a note on that, considering it may make him feel like Istredd is saying it's only him that is struggling. It's only him that is weak. It's not the truth, but it could twist that way.
He holds Lucifer and tilts his head to kiss his temple, underneath the mind he loves so well. "I came so close to losing you." And his own life, and Yennefer's, and all those mages. But Lucifer is a priority.