It would have been so easy to protest. To say he knows what he's doing, to insist, resist and do it his way unless forced otherwise. Like he always did. With Istredd, there's nothing to resist. Istredd does not reprimand him, he does not order him to this way or the other. He's not visibly angry, or disappointed, or irritated. He's calm, and he listens to everything Kell has to say.
And that throws Kell off enough so he does not immediately follow his usually habit of stubbornly digging his heels. He swallows, blinks, bites his lower lip, eyes trailing away, suddenly pulled into the moment and the awareness of how much different Istredd is from all the figures of authority in his life. Aware enough that it gives him pause.
"I..." he starts, swallows, clears his throat. Still unable to look at Istredd, even when he finally continues. "I know... and I believe you. And I know you know how much Rhy means to me. But I am my own person. I really am. You don't have to worry I'll do something stupid. Really."
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Date: 2023-12-17 08:45 am (UTC)And that throws Kell off enough so he does not immediately follow his usually habit of stubbornly digging his heels. He swallows, blinks, bites his lower lip, eyes trailing away, suddenly pulled into the moment and the awareness of how much different Istredd is from all the figures of authority in his life. Aware enough that it gives him pause.
"I..." he starts, swallows, clears his throat. Still unable to look at Istredd, even when he finally continues. "I know... and I believe you. And I know you know how much Rhy means to me. But I am my own person. I really am. You don't have to worry I'll do something stupid. Really."
At this moment, he even believes it.