'We should talk' is never a good conversation starter, don'tcha know, Istredd? Of course he doesn't. Why would he know. But their immense bleed makes it moot.
He should want this.
Six Degrees of Separation.
He should want all the walls, all the closed corridors, all the privacy. But despite what Istredd built between them, it was Lucifer that bled the most, emotionally, and is the cause of the last dent to their already-fragile bond after so many subsequent punches to it.
He should've been allowed to just fix things, he still thinks. To wipe the board clean. Why suffer when you can just erase, why feel.
(Conceptually, he knows why. In the moment, he did not know why. Even still. You can't understand love without heartbreak. But was the pain worth it, Istredd? Is the pain still worth it, Istredd?)
It's Istredd. So. Probably.
"I told you, before the mountain we were fine."
He stands by that. Shockingly. Istredd can blame himself as much as he wants but they both built into what they had. It was only thrown out of balance by--
"Just... I don't know. What happened on the mountain was necessary," he says, voice hard. Pointed. It was necessary, Istredd. You did the right thing, even if it was born out of panic. It had to happen. "But I don't know if there's any contingencies we can put in if it... if it happens again. Flood gates."
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Date: 2023-10-11 05:48 am (UTC)He should want this.
Six Degrees of Separation.
He should want all the walls, all the closed corridors, all the privacy. But despite what Istredd built between them, it was Lucifer that bled the most, emotionally, and is the cause of the last dent to their already-fragile bond after so many subsequent punches to it.
He should've been allowed to just fix things, he still thinks. To wipe the board clean. Why suffer when you can just erase, why feel.
(Conceptually, he knows why. In the moment, he did not know why. Even still. You can't understand love without heartbreak. But was the pain worth it, Istredd? Is the pain still worth it, Istredd?)
It's Istredd. So. Probably.
"I told you, before the mountain we were fine."
He stands by that. Shockingly. Istredd can blame himself as much as he wants but they both built into what they had. It was only thrown out of balance by--
"Just... I don't know. What happened on the mountain was necessary," he says, voice hard. Pointed. It was necessary, Istredd. You did the right thing, even if it was born out of panic. It had to happen. "But I don't know if there's any contingencies we can put in if it... if it happens again. Flood gates."